Monday, June 15, 2015

in this moment

Being across the world and not in my comfort zone has made me a bit wary at times. I feel incredibly lonely when sitting in a room full of people because of the language barrier. I notice myself sitting in silence and blankly staring into space. I’m realizing I am not in the present moment. I let my mind wander to other places and don’t focus on what is right in front of me. I think about what’s happening back at home, of the future, of the past, of everything but the now.

This trip is going to teach me a lot. It is going to show me things about myself that I have not noticed before. And more than anything it is going to help me grow more than ever.

I need to appreciate the moment I am in. Focus on the sounds around me. Focus on how I am feeling. The air that I am breathing in, the smells I am inhaling, and all that I am seeing.  Take everything at a slower pace instead of racing through to the next moment.

This past Saturday, I took in every moment and I never felt more present.

I went to Tyre Beach with its grainy soft sand, crystal turquoise water and cityscapes framing the sides. We planted ourselves underneath a tent. Ordered some waters, handed the bag of fresh fish to the waiter to cook for lunch and prepared ourselves for our swim.

We slowly walked towards the water with incredible anticipation. It was vibrant, pure and inviting. The color was intoxicating to look at with all of its shades of blue. As I stepped into the water a chill shocked through my feet all the way through my spine and instant goose bumps grew all over my body as I continued walking through. It was cold but I couldn’t help but keep marching forward, I felt a pull from the sea bringing me in.

And then the moment came where I could plunge myself into the Mediterranean Sea. I dove into the water and swam deeper into the blue. My eyes wide open under the water, I could see so clearly. I came up for air and let myself lay upon the water. I didn’t move and let the waves carry my body; I let the sea cradle me. I trusted nature. I knew no wave would be too big to knock me down and I looked up at the sky. I felt my arms and legs flow freely in the water and move with the movement of the sea. I let the sun beat down on my face and warm my body as the cold water cooled it. The sensation of temperatures and the movement of the water was so calming.  The sea was tranquil and the water cleansing. I swam deeper into the ocean with my eyes open. I came up for air and my eyes burned from the salt but I didn’t care. I felt the sea cleansing me internally and externally. My hair clung to the salt water and the dirt washed away. I felt my worries melt into the water. I felt the past, the future and everything but the now just dissolve into the sand. I was here in the sea swimming deep into the present. I came out of the sea purified. I took a huge inhale and then exhale. I am here, and I am happy.