The girl I was a year ago is an entirely different person
than who I am right now.
I didn’t know it then but I was allowed to be happy. For
some reason I had dug myself into a deep hole that I could not climb out of. I
felt lost and confused in the darkness because I had no connection to myself.
Constantly pretending to be a person I wasn’t for those around me, and truly
losing myself in the process.
It all began with me deciding to just listen to my intuition
and it has gotten me to this point.
A point where I feel like I am in the light all the time
with moments of dark clouds. But now I know how to handle those grey moments
and move past it. I feel my emotions through to my core and I can express
myself more authentically than ever. I find myself speaking from my heart and
not holding things back anymore. Just being real in communication and in the
way I am living my life has transformed me in a way I never thought it could.
I am constantly being guided to the next step. The more
grounded I am in the present moment, the more I can see the next move to make
and go from there. I can feel when my gut is opposed to the idea and take
another path.
It began small. It began with me deciding my voice and how I
felt mattered more to me than the people I was putting before me. I realized I
mattered. All the years of being told I did not matter and that I deserved to
be sad finally was released. I didn’t feel the handcuffs holding me back from
true happiness.
Because we all deserve that happiness.
As I sit here and reflect on this past year.
I realized I stuck with almost all my resolutions. I kept
progressing forward regardless of the obstacles that stood in my way. The more
I worked on bettering myself spiritually, mentally and physically the happier I
became. We are constantly evolving; we might as well evolve into better
versions of ourselves.
Allowing doubts and fears to wash away and not create walls
to stop me was a complicated task. With perseverance and faith in myself I know
I could do it.
As you sit and reflect on your 2016 and think of the new
year, reflect on what progress you want to make this following year from all
that you’ve learned this year.
I think the biggest take away I got from this year which I
felt like way an entire year dedicated to my happiness was trust your gut and
go where it leads you.
Cheers 2016 you showed me my true potential and how I can be
a ball of radiating light always.
