Yoga Transformation

A few years ago I had finished school.

Moved back home.

Had no plan.

Had my heart shattered by people, career possibilities and my own inner voice.

Had my anxiety increase.

Had chest pain.

With only myself and my uneasy thoughts.

I began my journey for self.

It began with a book.

As most all big changes begin with.

This book made me realize I had been denying myself of love for years.

It taught me how to meditate. How to take the time to slow my thoughts.

It revealed to me how to calm my anxiety and release the train of thoughts that caused my heart destruction.

As I continued with the meditation, I began diving into more yoga.

The yoga made me feel strong.

I saw it for just the physical in the beginning.

But I always enjoyed the savasana.

I also continued meditating at home.

My anxiety lessened greatly.

I started to love myself and love all the books I could grab onto to help me with my path.

Slowly the yoga became more powerful.

I was focusing on my breath with the movement.

I was focusing on releasing and easing into it.

I was focusing on what made me happy.

I felt the yoga transforming me.

Changing my thought patterns.

Increasing my strength.

Allowing me to slow down and focus on my thoughts.

It allowed me to release my negative self chatter.

So with all these astonishing feelings I was feeling from the yoga, I needed to deepen my practice and learn more.

So I got yoga certified. I immersed myself in the training for three weeks.

Learning about all that yoga encompasses.

 I had no idea how much yoga deals with all aspects of life.

How it affects everything.

How your body responds to pain. How it holds onto tension. How yoga allows you to ease into the pain. Allows you to breath into the fear and release. Allows you to see your true self.

Your happiest self.

Yoga continued transforming me.

And it continues to everyday.

I know when to breath.

 Where to focus.

Yoga has been the most beneficial thing in my life.

It has calmed me.

It has lessened my anxiety to almost nothing.

But most importantly

Yoga has taught me to love myself.

living your true purpose

When you see people living their true purpose and their dream life, it beams from their skin and you can hear it in their voice.

You can see it in their face.

You can feel it in the way they walk, move and express themselves.

Dreams come in all shapes and forms.

They way you see them is in how that person chooses to express themself.

It’s all an art form.

Art that we want you to see, and to feel something.

A mode to express and reveal adventures, emotions, growth and life.

And when they find the way to do it, they do it with all their heart and soul.

They are all around us.

Those living their true purpose.

Living their truth that they know in their heart is what they are supposed to.

Spread their joy in the shape they choose.

Expressing yourself in art doesn’t always mean taking a paintbrush to a canvas.

Art comes in all forms.

I have been lucky enough in the past month to go to two concerts. I have seen two women who are living their purpose and their dream.

And that is to share their stories through their songs.

To let you experience the love they have felt, the pain, the sorrow and the triumphs.

To let you dance to the rhythms of their lives.

To feel their heart break in your veins by the way the way they hit the note with their voice.

The way the instruments and vocals together can cover your entire body with goose bumps.

The way the lyrics bring you to a time that you can entirely relate to and either grin or cry.

The way the music just makes you feel.

We saw their art.

They showed us all how they are living their true purpose.

& oh boy did we feel it.

We danced to the rhythm of their hearts.

A humongous audience swaying to the songs, inhaling the lyrics and being intoxicated by the emotions the words had on them.

Living your truth is whatever life you choose that allows your heart to sing.

the present moment

Do you ever just take a second to fully devour the moment?

To take a deep breath and truly feel what all your senses are trying to tell you.

To take a minute to feel all the emotions coming up for you.

To allow your toes to fully sink into the ground and feel the wind brushing against your hair as the birds sing their daily song.

I’m realizing we don’t take enough moments to fully be there.

Be present in what is happening.

This past weekend I actually went on a sailboat ride.

Something I have dreamt about for years and always wanted to do.

A few of my girlfriends and I rented a sailboat with a captain for a day of sailing.

We were excited and full of joy and kept exclaiming how it was “sailboat day!”

When we first set off into the open water I felt a wave of excitement come over me.

Incredible music playing, the sunshine beating down upon us and I was surrounded by glorious women with excitement in their eyes.

When the time came for us to all leap in the water, we were desperate for it. With the seasickness and the heat, a jump into the cool gulf would be the most refreshing experience.

We held hands, looked down and looked at each other.

Excitement and nervousness all crept up upon us.

So I counted to help with the anticipation to leap.

The dive in was more refreshing than I could have ever excepted.

The water cooling me down and releasing the motion sickness from my body.

We swam, we giggled, and we let the water wash over us.

I let my body float in the water.

I closed my eyes.

Arms spread wide to feel the salt water cooling the tops of my shoulder blades.

I could hear and feel the ocean, with the wave’s moments and my body letting go to be held by the Gulf.

I heard the laughter of all my girlfriends on the sailboat, just in complete glee of the day we were having.

And I could feel the sun trying to grasp its way into my eyelids as I shut them tighter.

I took a deep breath in.

I wanted to take this moment in.

Remember it fully for all it had to offer.

With the excitement we had all felt the entire day and the happiness I was feeling as the water carried me.

Moments like this where we can truly appreciate life.

I have a tendency to get overly excited. To points where I just can’t believe something is happening and become overwhelmed.

During these moments I try to take it in.

Breathe it in.

Just like any moment.

Be in the present moment to feel.

So during this weekend.

And during any moment where you feel disconnected from where you are.

When you are worrying about tomorrow, or focusing on the pain of yesterday.

Close your eyes.

Breathe it in.

Listen to what your senses are telling you.

& be present.