you are not stuck

You are NOT stuck. I feel as if I have to state that because we all have a tendency to forget or feel so trapped in our current state that we don’t realize a way out. We continue in committed relationships because we think that’s the best we are going to get. We consider that we were only given this one person and that I am messing it up, so we need to continue until we can fix it. That’s not the case. If you are in a toxic relationship that doesn’t make you feel excited and happy for every single day then you don’t have to stay in it. Be that a relationship with your significant other or a friendship. If you don’t feel supported, loved, appreciated and just simply happy with this person, you CAN leave. You have the capability to get up and walk out. It is mustering up the courage to do so that takes so long.

At times we know it. We know in the back of our mind that the person we are with is not the one we want to marry. We feel it deep in the pit of our stomach that they are not our forever. But we still remain hopeful and trying to force it. We change ourselves to make it work because we think that the time accrued from this relationship is more valuable then our own happiness. We put our significant other before us to the point that we lose our self. The fights continue and the blame is always placed on you. To the point where you start to believe it yourself, believe that you are unworthy and you alone create the chaos and disruption in the bond.

It’s a trap. A trap to make you believe you can not leave. To make you believe that THIS is the happiest you will be. A trap that has been forming far before you can even remember. The idea of inadequacy planted deep within you as a child and grown into adulthood to make you believe you are not enough. Which makes you strive to make friendships and relationships last because of the complete lack of self.

You feel entire disconnection from yourself because you know what your gut is telling you but you are having trouble facing it. To actually admit defeat that the relationship is not meant to remain will be the toughest part.

But slowly, once you surrender and walk away. You start to realize who you are.

The happiness within you that you forgot existed begins to reveal itself. The shining light that you had that was put out by the relationship returns in full brightness. Because you have finally did it! You did what you knew from the beginning that you had to do.

There are so many people that do not know their beauty or worth, that remain in relationships and settling for unhappiness. They don’t realize the fact that they deserve happiness and they can have it.

You have the strength and the courage to do things that make you happy. You’ve had it within you this whole time. Now you must follow your intuition and allow the person you have always meant to be shine through.

If you are crying more than smiling and you can feel your gut instinct begging you to make a drastic move. Do it! Because at the end of the day, if you two were not meant to be together then maybe you were both meant for another.

There will be someone out there who will appreciate every thing about you. Who will find all your quirks and oddities, are what makes you who you are.

But until that time, you must fall in love with you and the freedom of singledom.

You must realize you are enough and you have always been enough. Fall in love with you and be fully yourself, because truly there is no one better to impersonate.

Why waste anymore time being unhappy? Don’t allow a fearful story you’ve told yourself for over a century continue playing out in the present.

You are not stuck!

& you deserve happiness.

here's to the friends that were by my side through 2016

Here is to the souls that I surround myself with that just radiate happiness with me.

I couldn’t do it without you!

You have made this year the best yet with your words, your support and your energy. We are all doing this together. Moving past the pain, moving past the struggle and marching forward. We all encourage each other to be our very best. 

Finding friends like this is difficult to come by. But I have found my tribe and without them 2016 would have ended a lot differently. 

So here is to 2017 where we will celebrate life & continue progressing forward together.

Here’s to the nights that we gaze at the moon and create affirmations we say aloud and viewing all the stars in their glory.

Here’s to adventures involving sunshine, nature and movement.

Here’s to nights filled with live music and allowing the songs to be felt to our core. 

Here’s to all the cuddle puddles.

Here’s to the deep conversations with loved ones about something so much bigger than us.

Here’s to the contagious laughs and giggles that make you fall over and barely breath from being consumed by happiness.

Here’s to all the aspirations and dreams coming true within the next year

Continue to dream

Continue to dance under the moonlight

& continue to be happy

2017 we are ready for you! We welcome you with open arms and high hopes.

<3

2016 the year of happiness & following your gut

The girl I was a year ago is an entirely different person than who I am right now.

I didn’t know it then but I was allowed to be happy. For some reason I had dug myself into a deep hole that I could not climb out of. I felt lost and confused in the darkness because I had no connection to myself. Constantly pretending to be a person I wasn’t for those around me, and truly losing myself in the process.

It all began with me deciding to just listen to my intuition and it has gotten me to this point.

A point where I feel like I am in the light all the time with moments of dark clouds. But now I know how to handle those grey moments and move past it. I feel my emotions through to my core and I can express myself more authentically than ever. I find myself speaking from my heart and not holding things back anymore. Just being real in communication and in the way I am living my life has transformed me in a way I never thought it could.

I am constantly being guided to the next step. The more grounded I am in the present moment, the more I can see the next move to make and go from there. I can feel when my gut is opposed to the idea and take another path.

It began small. It began with me deciding my voice and how I felt mattered more to me than the people I was putting before me. I realized I mattered. All the years of being told I did not matter and that I deserved to be sad finally was released. I didn’t feel the handcuffs holding me back from true happiness.

Because we all deserve that happiness.

As I sit here and reflect on this past year.

I realized I stuck with almost all my resolutions. I kept progressing forward regardless of the obstacles that stood in my way. The more I worked on bettering myself spiritually, mentally and physically the happier I became. We are constantly evolving; we might as well evolve into better versions of ourselves.

Allowing doubts and fears to wash away and not create walls to stop me was a complicated task. With perseverance and faith in myself I know I could do it.

As you sit and reflect on your 2016 and think of the new year, reflect on what progress you want to make this following year from all that you’ve learned this year.

I think the biggest take away I got from this year which I felt like way an entire year dedicated to my happiness was trust your gut and go where it leads you.

Cheers 2016 you showed me my true potential and how I can be a ball of radiating light always.